Friday, September 30, 2005

Well, it's official

We have officially broken ranks with our church. My hubby sent an email to the prayer distribution list, hoping to open some eyes to some of the problems, but all he's received is one person asking him to remove her from "his" list as she didn't give permission for her email address to be distributed, another one that was heartfelt but didn't seem to recoginize there WAS a problem, and a third from someone who wasn't even in our Sunday School class! Hers meant the most, as it seemed to make her see that she might not have been the best Sunday school member. Now, I'm not saying that DH & I are perfect; we have our misgivings, too. Our problem seemed to be that we didn't fit the mold of what "they" thought a Sunday school member should be: Hubby's been married once before, I can't bear children, he has a daughter from his first marriage who doesn't live with us, we BOTH work outside the home (apparently I don't work in the proper profession - teacher, day care, etc.), we didn't grow up in the church (well, he did, but didn't get saved until he was a teenager; I was saved as an adult), we don't live in a 4 bedroom, 2 living room house, we drive a beat up used car, etc. Mind you, we're not the only ones who don't fit the mold, but I'm trying to figure out what happened to God's grace? A friend of my husband's put it well...Jesus died for you, so that means I have to tolerate you. Is that really what being a Christian is all about? Again, hubby & I take some of the blame, as well, but no one else seems to want to even admit that there's a problem. I'm beginning to wonder if he & I should just start our own 2 member church, but then the Bible says don't forsake the assembling of believers, so I just keep the faith that there is a church out there for he & I. Yes, G & E, yours is on the list!

If I don't get another chance to blog today, have a great weekend & we'll see you back here on Monday, same Bat-time, same Bat-channel!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Not much to say

For those people who know me, the above statement is something new to them. I'm usually a real gabfest, but I don't have a whole heck of a lot to comment on today. I think it's probably due to my allergies/cold/sinuses (take your pick, I can't ever seem to tell the difference).

I have sleep apnea & am supposed to be sleeping with a CPAP, but I'm having trouble getting used to sleeping with something stuck up my nose. Last night I just skipped it all together since I was already having trouble breathing. It's frustrating when you can't sleep through the night. My usual habit is to go into the living room @ about 10 pm (when hubby goes to bed, cause he can't sleep with the TV on & that's the way I go to sleep), stay there till about 11 when I get sleepy, go to be for about an hour, get back up for 30 minutes to an hour, go back to bed & sleep for a couple of hours, wake up when Maggie, my miniature dachshund, jumps off the bed & decides she needs to go do her business, then it's back to bed until 5 am. Man, I'm exhausted just reading that! I did actually notice over the weekend that, when I did sleep with my CPAP on, I felt rested, even with the about sleeping schedule. I know, most of you don't care about my sleeping habits, but it makes me feel better writing about it. Besides, I'm not putting a gun to your head to make you read this, now am I?! Unless your my hubby, of course...:-)

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Questions

I attend a weekly Bible study knows as BSF (Bible Study Fellowship). This semester we're studying Genesis, so I pose this question: Was the earth created in 7 literal days, or was it over a longer time period? Personally, I believe that God could've spoke it into existence in an instant, but He wanted to set an example for us. No, not that we can speak things into existence (I'll save that for a later rambling), but that we are to take one day out of the week to rest, give ourselves a chance to recharge, and focus on Him. After all, don't you think there's no one that knows us better than our Creator? He's made the world to show His very existence, His very being, and so many of us choose to ignore what's right in front of our face. I heard it said in a sermon one time, something to the effect of "The rocks will cry out if we don't, and I don't want to be outdone by a rock!" Think about it, our God chose to create us to have a relationship with Him. He wasn't lonely, He's God! Then, when we screwed up the plan, which He knew we would do, He chose to send His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, to come down to earth and die in our place for our sins, and be resurrected, so that our relationship with our heavenly Father could be restored...and the best part? Jesus willingly did that! Actually, the best part is that it's a free gift, He won't force you to take it; all you have to do is ask Him for it.

Monday, September 26, 2005

First entry

I know, real original title...sue me, I'm new at this!

Well, a little about me. I'm 40, married, 1 step daughter, a Christian, work for a car rental company...that's about it for now. I'll figure out later on where I can put this on the blog. I'll be using this to vent. What would an Okie have to vent about? Gee, our mayor (Mayor Misfortune, as my darling hubby--otherwise knows as DH--likes to call him), the bought & paid 4 1/2 members of our city council, our family's church situation...and the fact that my mother in law is dying from terminal brain cancer.

We went to see my MIL this weekend. She was diagnosed back in May, went through a round of chemo & radiation, but it didn't stop the growth. In the past 2 weeks, she has lost the use of both of her legs & is losing control of her left arm (she's left handed & the tumor is on the right side of her brain). The blessing in all of this is that she is a Christian, so we know that God is in control. I wish we knew what His plan was, but I just try to keep in mind that He has one.

Well, time to shut it down for now...part 2 tomorrow.

God bless y'all!

Shel